Jan 12, 2013

I'm Going on an Adventure!



If you have been reading this blog, you know that "The Hobbit" has had a great impact on me. I've not really shared what the most important epiphany has been, until now.

I have become very hobbit-like.  I like my cozy apartment with my cats, books, computer, etc. My life has become very routine, most would say mundane. I'm not used to going on adventures, at least not in the past decade and a half.

When Gandalf says to Bilbo at the beginning of the movie:  "Your life is not in your books and maps, it's out there," he might as well have been speaking to me. 

So I have challenged myself to not shy away or be fearful of new things, of changes, of adventures.

The second part of the epiphany is a bit more difficult to share.  Fifteen years ago I went through the devastation of betrayal and the end of my marriage. I naturally withdrew to take time to heal.  But I also closed off that part of me.  I simply had no desire to even think about being in a relationship ever gain.  

That is until I saw "The Hobbit."

I was so taken with Richard Armitage's acting that I went home after seeing the movie and looked up to see what other work he had done on IMDB (Internet Movie Database -- don't know what I ever did before they created that genius of a website, but I digress).  Much to my delight, several of his works were available via Amazon Prime. So, at 11 pm that night I started to watch "The Vicar of Dibley: A Holy Wholly Happy Ending" in which Richard was a guest star as Harry Kennedy.

While I was watching him, my wall crumbled.  He plays such a sweet, wonderful man and he does it so superbly well.  By the end I was sobbing, because for the first time in years, I admitted to myself: I am lonely and want to be loved again.


Thank you Richard, from the bottom of my heart, for playing Harry.



(Maybe my last post where I said I am thankful for him, makes a bit more sense now).

Is there someone like Harry out there for me?  
Only the Lord knows, but at least now, I am open.



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    1. Stacie,

      Thank you so much for taking the time to read, comment, and for the virtual hug.

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  2. Thank you for such a lovely and heartfelt post! I'm so happy that discovering Richard has led you to be open to adventures of your own!

    It's never too late to go on an adventure (be it for love or all those other things - like climbing Everest or skiing some double black diamonds...), and I am so happy to count you as a kindred soul in this journey we are all on!

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    1. Velvet,

      It was our interaction before I wrote this that spurred me on to be honest.

      I am blessed to have discovered such a generous soul because of our shared love of a certain actor. :-)

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  3. I will hug you in a few hours for this.

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    1. Janine,

      We live 30 miles from one another, work 5 miles apart, and would never have met if not for Twitter and Richard.

      Thank you for going on this adventure with me.

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  4. Thank you for sharing! Sending you virtual hugs!

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    1. Judit,

      Thank you for reading, commenting, and being a new friend even though we live a world apart.

      Virtual hugs back!

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  5. I am so proud of you! I can't wait to see where your adventure leads. I pray that the goblins and orcs will be few and far between; that the giants will be harmless; that there would be long rests with Beorn and the elves; and that you would find your treasure.

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  6. Oh my baby sister, you who have more wisdom than I ever hope to, you bless me beyond words!

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